I remember that flight clearly. It was one that changed the way I felt about flying. I was on my return trip from Canada and we were passing through some horrible weather. The vibrations of the plane were enough to make me panic. It didn't help when I saw lighting bolts and heavy rain right outside my window. In such circumstances even an atheist would start to pray. So earlier this year when the opportunity to travel half way around the whole to China came my way, I definitely wasn't seeing it as such. I panicked. Let someone else go. But what would life be without challenges and I needed to face this fear once and for all.
So I did what I knew. I called on my God and I asked in prayer if he would send someone else! Ok, so I also asked for his perfect will to be done. If it meant I should go, then I would. But he had to go with me of course. I researched the scriptures and found lots of them referring to fear. I memorized them and kept repeating them to myself when it was revealed that I had to go. I felt comforted knowing that God made provision in the Bible for people like me, dealing with fear.
Before I left my local airspace, I went up for prayer in church. I told my closest friends and tried to solicit their prayers for me as well. I even confided in my parents; usually I don't like to worry them so I keep quite with such things. For a while leading up to my departure, I felt desperate to find a way out. Everyone around me was asking if I was excited but I just didn't feel anything but numbness.
Again, I cried out to the Lord and he heard me. Little me, he heard it all. I was given a big send off like if I was leaving the country for good but it was encouraging right up until I entered Immigration on my own. It was just me and Jesus. The anxiety was there but when I got on that plane I had peace. I could watch out the window without feeling like I was falling to my death. Even when the bumps along the way came, I would gently say under my breath the name of Jesus and the movements of the aircraft would stop almost immediately.
It's so amazing that all we need to do is simply ask. A God that answers pray is he. High up in those skies I was at peace. He is the prince of peace; Jehovah Shalom. It's only when you experience such captivating fear that you can understand what it is like to be set free from it. To be honest I don't even know at what point the fear left me. But I knew my God was with me and he held my hands in his all the way through. I thank him for bringing me past this point in my life. What are your fears today? Bring it to him, ask and let him take it all away......
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